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healthh-comess-firstt: Fitness Club on We Heart It....

Sun, 13 Jan 2013 00:39:39 +0200

Fitness Club on We Heart It. http://weheartit.com/entry/38035295/via/yakchik

Theatre and Tein...

Sat, 12 Jan 2013 01:54:00 +0200

I was in the theatre and it was very good I like just like movies and books it took me away from my sad and lonely life.

A better day than yesterday for sure… It feels less heavy despite of my very beautiful friend on the other side of the table.

I am not someone to judge others,but she is just annoying .She always talks about herself like she was the ugliest and dumbest person in the world.

I hate every people like she,sometimes I can see girls and boys on facebook and tumblr saying they are so ugly,but they don’t know the feeling being rejected just because you’re ugly. Sometimes I meet new people ,but the next time no one remembers to my name,they don’t even say hi to me ever again.

And I can’t change because I am alone and there’s no one to talk to,sometimes I just want to talk it out and cry,but I can’t.Because every one judges me before they get to know me. For example this summer I was on a trip with a bunch of strangers and someone stole money even from me,then someone said it was me and everyone agreed.The question is why don’t blame the strange girl who always wear black and never talks to anyone.They never realized that I wear black because it calms me or I don’t talk with anyone because they never asked anything.

I always the one who is alone….

Christmas fever

Sat, 12 Jan 2013 01:44:51 +0200

Christmas is on it’s way and i feel doomed. I hate it like I do since I was 7.I think it started around that time.I realized at school that everyone hates me because I’m fat.I hadn’t mattered what I tried,who I’d spoken with,everyone left me alone. I remember one particular time my best friend left me behind because one boy from the class told her is she ‘ll talk to me no one ever will talk to her again,then she left me. Next they someone told something horrible and that was the first time i tried to commit suicide.But it was one thing to hear it from strangers and another to hear it from your mother. That year I realized that there is not a such ting like Santa and from that year we’ve been doing Christmas shopping together with my mother and every year it gets more and more painful. To hear it from your mother that you’re fat and ugly. And you need to lose weight or you will wear mans clothing. She knows that I tried it and held a diet*a strict one* for almost a year and you lost about 4 pounds.It’s a disaster to go trough this torture every year I just wanna die.

My every days…

Sat, 12 Jan 2013 01:35:28 +0200

My every days…

Alone

Tue, 11 Dec 2012 00:49:05 +0200

You know the feeling?

Being alone,afraid and lonely?

This is the way I always fell. Less than anyone,less than nothing.

I want to change,be someone else.

But I don’t know how.

Sometimes I just feel like death would be a favor from life…

I forget how to smile for real.

How to see myself beautiful,how to be powerful…

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Sun, 26 Aug 2012 13:13:00 +0300